Thank God I saved this…

So I go to check this blog before I publish it and the library just ate it!!! Good thing I wrote most of this at work and saved it!!

Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God,and once more, oh my God! I’m moving Friday provided that we can borrow the neighbor’s truck. The bad news-my room isn’t even packed!!! It’s okay I’m not panicking. Major day on Friday, though because I plan on getting home and packing till it’s done or till 230, then go get the check, go get a PO Box, go to the bank, eat, finish packing (take apart bed, empty dresser, etc), then get it all out to my new place. Set up bed; find sheets, towels, clothes, and crash. I’m figuring probably 30-35 hours straight that I’ll be up if I don’t get a nap. Ooof. Ouch. Well, probably this weekend I will get Internet set up so on Monday we’ll start back to Mon-Fri daily blog. I like to take the weekends off, you know.
Baseball’s about to start.
Johnnie Cochran passed away-he was OJ’s attorney and said, “If it doesn’t fit you must acquit.”
The pope now has breathing and feeding tube-not looking good for him. But on the bright side at least he’s not Terry Schiavo. This poor woman has been battled over by her parents and her husband since day one. Recently they’ve been arguing over what to do with her remains-burial or cremation. It’s not about what Terry would have wanted at this point but rather proving themselves right. Somebodys got to lose-Terry lost a long time ago when the acrimony started. Update-Terry passed away Thursday.
Dick Ebersol returned to work on Tuesday. Ebersol was involved in a plane wreck in late November of last year that killed one of his sons.

Well I’ll see you guys on Monday.

Turning a corner

All sorts of stuff that you won’t see till Thursday because I’m doing this post and saving it to a disk. I really feel like here lately things are changing for me, in more than one way. The depression I’ve had for around a month is beginning to lift and I’m not so cranky and moody anymore. Not sure about the move, although this weekend could turn out to be a marathon of final packing and moving. We’ll see. Mom wants me to weed my stuff down. I’ve got too much stuff for one person. I guess, I’m going to toss probably 90% of my books to Goodwill, go through my closet, try and condense the paperwork I’ve got everywhere, and probably end up needing a HUGE bag of chocolate and maybe some tacos or a Big Mac. I like to cocoon and my space resonates that because there’s junk everywhere. To me it says home, to mom it says clutter. But she is right, I need to toss more than I pack.

I’ve started taking some initiative at work and the feedback has been positive. I’ve trained one new person on audit and he’s sticking around. I’ve taken over and gotten somethings accomplished and created a memo on the spreadsheet email that we’re now doing differently. The guy I’ve trained and Jeff has started calling me Wonder Woman. It feels good, though, to be respected and to have trust in your work. I didn’t have that at the other hotel. In fact it was just the opposite; they didn’t respect me and they didn’t trust me. After I quit I still had to call out to get their numbers (rate and occupancy percent) every night and the fill-in auditor I knew and liked. She asked me how I got everything done, and that she understood why I quit. Then the big boss man had to work (I thought he covered a shift of mine once, but I digress) and realized there was no way in heck anyone could get this all accomplished. The whole time I worked there, especially after we rolled out the hot breakfast and more work, I thought I had a time management problem. Turns out they couldn’t even get a half hour or so free like I did to blog. Turns out I’m better than I thought.

This is part of the changes taking place. More self-esteem; and that’s a good thing because it was in the dumps. It’s okay to be me and everything that entails. I’m smart, bookish, independent, and not overly social. Maybe mom and Manda doesn’t like that or like those traits in me, but it is me and my life. I have to like me and that’s the most important person. I know I can do this job, I know that I’m “okay”, and I know that I’m capable of creating friends. Okay, so some of you reading this got this in like high school, but here recently I’ve really struggled with depression and self-esteem. I’m coming out on the other side with lots learn and experienced. Now I just need to learn how to relate better to my mom and my sister, how to not let them run me over, and how to state my needs without resorting to just shutting up and seething.

I’m okay and you’re okay.

So hookish (as Sars would say) and yet so true.

See y’all tomorrow.

Almost done with today

I worked from midnight to ten this morning…And it was my day off. Work called at like 1140 saying that the auditor that was suppose to show, didn’t, so could I come in? Sure, I said, tossed a half bag of popcorn away, turned off the movie I had just started, and then realized my uniforms were just tossed into the dryer like 15 minutes ago. It’s so great that I can wear blue jeans to work once in a blue moon. I may get Sunday off or just get 10 hours of overtime. Either way works, Sunday I could pack, overtime I could pay some extra bills. But I’ve been up like 20 hours at this point and getting very sleepy. I’m going to go home, put on the Bon Jovi CD I got from the library, shove everything off of my bed, and crash. Oh, and set the alarm so I’m up when dad comes gets me this evening. Let’s see it’s Cops, America’s Most Wanted, and then 48 Hours Mysteries. Then I’m going to finish that movie I started.

I watched the movie Ray recently and was astonished. This is a movie I want. Dad wasn’t too impressed, mom thought it was good, but I loved it. Friday Night Lights on the other hand, mom loved, I thought it was okay, and I don’t think dad liked it. I’m not into football so it was okay. I liked Rudy and I know there’s a couple of other movies that I can’t think of that’s football movies so I think it was just…I don’t know. Saw Mr. 3000 a couple days ago and really liked it. Clicked, yes, ok a lot but I still enjoyed it. But then again it’s baseball, need I say more??

Easter is this Sunday. I think I’m going over to mom’s when they’re at church and cook Easter dinner. Mom will put the ham on before she leaves and I’ll surprise them with the rest. Same old stuff-ham, potatoes and gravy, asparagus casserole, I’m thinking carrots, and rolls. Nothing fancy. All of us together for one meal. Oh-and next week is Egg Salad Week. I don’t think this is a coincidence.

I’m getting rather slap happy or at least grammatically slap happy. How do you spell tired??? I’ll let you guys go and see you probably Thursday evening. Adios.

Fair to Midland

I’m just okay-so blah that I just want this next week or so to be gone. Although I could be wishing myself into something worse. Manda still hasn’t found a car. Mom and dad are willing to put down some of the money for a down payment-if it was me in her shoes I’d have been told to figure something out. They just give and give and I just don’t understand because there’s such strict “guidelines” for me and the kids. If I had done half of what she had mom and dad would have start the tough love program. Maybe I’m gripping because it’s not fair, maybe it’s because I give and give and no one gives a hoot, and maybe I’m just cranky today. If she doesn’t get a car, I don’t know how this is going to work out with her needing to be at work. Where I’m moving to it’s a good 10-15 miles out of BA in the country. I’m just really worried.

There’s been a lot in the news but I’m just not up to do a traditional blog tonight.

I’ll be back tomorrow.

Just leave Big Mac Alone!!!!

I am so sick of these freaking idiotic commentators saying that Mark McGwire has just screwed himself seven ways to Sunday. Why, may I inquire, was a retired ball player from 1998 even invited to the McCarthy hearings?!?!?? When Big Mac retired, he retired. No spring training, no hanging around the ball club, no commentator jobs, no hawking MLB stuff. He said, “I’m tired.” Then he dropped off of the edge of the world. Then someone with a lot to gain (and little to lose) writes a book and everybody jumps on this stupid bandwagon. Raise your hand if you honestly didn’t think there was steroids in baseball. You just don’t put on 20 pounds of bulk because of spinach. Those shots and creams were not vitamins. Players knew what was going on, or at least those “in the know”-that is the ones either doing it or being invited to do it. Big Mac is gone from baseball, he told what he knew, he stated his limitations on what he would say-go find a new bandwagon. By the way, instead of investigating something that isn’t illegal, perhaps we can investigate why Congress is in on the deal (maybe they just want to know where to find some steroids. They don’t have to worry about their balls shrinking-none of them have any.)

Anyway, as you can tell, baseball has me really hot right now. This year I don’t really think it’s going to matter who gets to the postseason-we’ll still be talking steroids in October. Big October homer with two on base and two out in the bottom of the ninth? Oh, he’s on steroids. I really hate the media on occasion.

Jessica Lundsford body was found Saturday. She was abducted through an unlocked door on February 23rd by someone in the area. She was found 150 yards from her house. Jessica was also sexually assaulted. Parents, your local police department will have a listing of all registered sex offenders in your area. Jessica’s dad had no idea that this guy lived so close (his half-sisters home was with a few blocks) to them. I’m not saying if he knew that this could have been avoided. Just that sometimes awareness of the situations around you can help out. Prayers to Jessica’s family.

It looks like this will be the last post this week. I may try and type some stuff up and get it saved then run upstairs in the dead of the night at work to do a quick blog. Manda’s new schedule is 11-7 pm and that will keep me from the library. She should have a car by the end of the week. I should be moving in a week and a half. So she’s on her own after this week anyways.

I will see you guys later.

Happy St Paddy’s Day

Yeah, green ink for St Patrick’s Day. Lots going on in the news but I’ll get to that later on. I reserved the last of my booklist and got a good chunk of the books in today. I started the list I think my sophomore year of high school and have added and taken off and basically fiddled with the thing. When I moved down here I made a diligent effort to get through the thing. I also got John Grisham’s newest book (at one point I was like 127 of 435 holds) and three CDs. My musical tastes have really become eclectic lately. Today’s selection is Glenn Campbell, with a tribute to George Gershwin and a soundtrack, Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil, thrown in. Midnight, by the way, was an excellent movie and comes highly recommended. I’ve burned copies of Dean Martin, Kenny Wayne Shephard, and the Bellamy Brothers. A well-rounded person.

Let’s see…Robert Blake has been acquitted on two charges; one of murder and one of soliciting for murder. He still faces a civil trial by his wife’s family. Scott Petersen got the death penalty. Which is like life without parole but he’ll never get out. Michael Jackson case is still going strong and I’m still not paying any attention to it-I wait for the verdict.

Tomorrow is Awkward Moments Day, which to me is a lot like Panic Day a few days ago. I have both everyday-and usually because of my big mouth:). Tomorrow is also Forgive Mom and Dad day. No snarky comment on this-if you love someone, let them know don’t wait for a holiday to give them flowers and candy. If you need to forgive someone, anyone, just do it-don’t wait for a “day”. Time is remarkably fluid and flows faster than we all think. As some one said, “It’s later than we think.”

Baseball was on Capital Hill today and I got a kick out of see these guys in suits and ties. Looked rather spiffy if I say so myself. McGwire declined to name names and refused to say much of anything. But rather than jump on the bandwagon of bashing these guys let me just say that this isn’t just fun and games. Anything said on the Hill could come back around to bite them in the butt. Legally, these guys are walking a very fine line and it’s a sad fact that our government may very hire a Special Attorney to investigate the problem in baseball like they did when Clinton was in office. Anything, anything, these guys say, whether to friends, media, or Senators, can be used against them in a court of law. If you want honesty and honest answers you’re going to have to start making deals or crack down and start prosecuting.

Man, two for one today-I’m going to put my soapbox away now. Today was the last day of remodel at mom’s Wal-Mart. I haven’t heard where Manda’s going now that she’s done but she has been offered a full-time job. We’re counting down to the move. Buddy (and sorta boss) Jeff is counting the days till his German love flies in. I can’t wait for it to get warm. Seems like spring is right around the corner with everyone moving a little faster, laughing a lot more, and baseball is starting up again. To all those out there in Missouri, Hi!! I’ll talk to you guys later.

Where did spring go?

I think spring has gone AWOL-it only hit like 45 today. Nice and nippy-drag those coats out one more time. I plan on getting my coat dry cleaned first of April-I may hold off for…oh, May? Oklahoma weather-gotta love it. Well it’s nice and sunny in Florida and all the ballplayers are looking sharp in the preseason games. Bud Selig is testifying before congress but the players are still reticent. The big news is that no one has heard anything from Mark McGwire. Big Mac was a huge revitalization force after the 94 shutdown of MLB. He broke home run records and there seems to be a very good chance that he did knowingly take steroids. I’ve known all along that baseball isn’t perfect but to love the game so much I have to almost close my eyes to what is negative about this game. Perhaps MLB will clean up it’s act but I don’t think the game ever was or ever will be “pure”. Like anything it’s an entertainment that is in business and that means that the bottom line is more important than anything. How did I get off on this tangent?

Moving right along, I’ve got a story that will blow every local “mom gave birth in a car/on the freeway/in the bathroom” story right out of the water. An Afghan woman was in labor for 18 hours and was having trouble so the Americans took her and her husband in a Black Hawk to go to the American base hospital. You guessed it, she gave birth in the Black Hawk. The pilot radioed to an escort aircraft, “Hey we’ve got another passenger on board.” Mom and the baby girl are doing fine.

Rock and Roll Hall of Fame induction ceremonies are this week. If you get cable, it will be broadcasted on VH1 this weekend. Inducted are U2, the Pretenders, Buddy Guy, Percy Sledge, and the O’Jays. Bono was on hand a few years back to inducted Bruce Springsteen and the Boss was on hand to return the favor.

Some history this morning, on the 14th the Top 10 Most Wanted List was first published in 1914-the FBI now has them on their website or you can go to amw.com for both the FBI and the Marshall’s lists. Tomorrow, Gumby was first shown in 1957. Today My Fair Lady opened on Broadway in 1956. I think this was a movie with Catherine Hepburn in a black and white dress (or am I thinking of something else). In 1937 Cook County Hospital (were ER is supposedly shot at) was the first hospital blood bank opened in 1937.

Today, the 15th of March, is known as the Ides of March. Gaius Julius Caesar was stabbed to death in the Roman Senate by 60 conspirators led by Marcus Junius Brutus and Gaius Cassius Longinus. Talk about not being popular at work (and thank God that our Senators haven’t come up with this thought to get rid of anybody). Some interesting facts about Caesar that I didn’t know is that he conquered all of Gaul and made the first Roman inroads to Britain. Caesar also started the Julian Calendar which with a slight modification and adjustment in the 16th Century is still used today. By the way, today is also Brutus Day for “all of the intrigue, plotting, and backstabbing that occurs at your workplace.”

And with that said, I’m going to call it a night. The place I’m moving to has internet connection and she doesn’t have a problem with me getting on so starting first of April we’re back to most mornings a new blog. Have a great day and I’ll blog again on Thursday.

Can I Go Back to Bed?

After a great weekend in which I actually got sleep I feel like I’m half dead. Sinuses is partly to blame. They put in new windows at the apartment on Friday which should be great except that I got use to a draft from the window above my head. No draft now and I am waking up sweaty. I know, wonderful mental image. I guess I’m going to have to start cracking my window.

I’ve got approximately a week and a half before I move out and boy am I looking forward to it. I am going to get a PO Box and I will send out my new address to family and friends back in Missouri when I get things settled. I got some of my kitchen packed up and I’m going to have Sarah stop at Wal-Mart and have mom get some boxes from work. I just wish that I could get this done and over with-now that I know what direction things are going I’m getting impatient. Well, I’m going to go ahead and go-Sarah is waiting on me. I’ll see y’all tomorrow. Adios!

This could be a big blog

I’ve got lots to say so to warn you guys this could be a lengthy blog…So now you’re warned. I think spring has hit Oklahoma-they’re calling for 77 on Saturday. It’s sunny and warm and I’m not getting any sleep!!! The idiot upstairs has been thumping his rap music three days in a row between 130 and 300 pm then I had a meeting yesterday at work at 200 pm. This morning I came home and just crashed. Hard. Now I just feel hung over and yucky. I’ll be okay once I get caught up in my sleep and everything works itself out. Looks like I’ll be out of my apartment by the end of the month. But I’m losing my deposit. Oh, Manda tells me that she’ll pay me back bit by bit but this is the same person that promised me eighty dollars out of her last check two weeks ago and I haven’t seen a dime. My theory is this, if she can’t pay me back the five bucks she owes me, why should I believe that I’m getting my two hundred back. This was all done with the “This is set up but just to make me feel ok I’m going to ask” type of line. I so want out of this town at times that I seriously consider being a missing person.

A little history this month that I haven’t blogged about: the 2nd was the 80th Anniversary of the highway numbering system. On the seventh Monopoly was invented in 1933. It’s the Girl Scout, National Cheerleading, and Procrastination Week. There’s a really bad joke in their somewhere. Yesterday Barbie debuted in 1959. She’s looking good for 54-must be the Botox:) Also, yesterday was Panic day. Most days are panic days in my world. Today paper money was first issued. Five, ten and twenty dollar bills were available. Every notice that in Western movies they use coins and in Western movies featuring gambling they use paper money. Just an observation from left field. Tomorrow is Lawrence Welk’s birthday. He would have been 102 years old. Which reminds me of a bad joke in which the husband tells the wife, “It’s Welk on channel 2 or Hee-Haw on channel 4. Bubbles or bubba?” (I told you, bad joke.) Oh, and the Mustang was introduced on this day in 1964.

I am almost finished with my booklist and have great plans for my next list-blogging! Being ambitious (or just dumb) I’m going to blog about the new list on a new blog. No, I am not going to provided details. It will be listed with World of Blogs and if you want to find it-go hunting. Who knows-you might find all sort of great stuff.

I didn’t check baseball stuff before I started this little adventure. But the Senate are wanting to have hearings to determine something about baseball and steroids. I’m still not clear on what the big deal is that the Senate has to be involved. Don’t we have another country to invade? Baseball, good bad or ugly, will have to deal with this issue. On their own, the US Government should, in my lowly opinion, butt out.

Anyway, I’m going to call this a day and get on out of here. See y’all later.

A little of this

Well, I’m pretty sure I’ve got the living situation figured out. I’m real excited and peaceful about the decision. I am always looking to put down roots and stay some place for the next fifty years but this is just a temporary thing for a year or so. Who knows what’s going to happened.

Baseball news-Cardinals have been doing great in the preseason games. I’ve now acquired my second baseball cap. The first was for my birthday and the second was for…My mom loves me? It was five dollars at Wal-Mart. Imagine that-being able to buy a baseball hat in Wal-Mart in Oklahoma. Will the miracles never cease?

Still no word on Jessica Lundsford-the missing nine year old out of Florida. John Walsh is keeping track of the case over on America’s Most Wanted if you want some details. Prayers, please, for this family.

Not much in history. Those numbers I crunched for February’s Iraq deaths are now available. Let’s see…Median age of those killed were 24 with a 42 year old Staff Sergeant Steven G Bayow the oldest. SSergeant Bayow was from Micronesia. Four nineteen year-olds were killed: Lance Corporal Richard C Clifton of Milford Delaware, Marine Corps; Private Landon S Giles of Indiana Pennsylvania of the Army; Lance Corporal Sean P Maher of Grayslake Illinois of the Marine Corp; and Lance Corporal Richard A Perez Jr of Las Vegas; Marine Corps. Illinois lost the most native sons with seven deaths. Texas and Florida both lost five. Then Minnesota, Mississippi, and Oklahoma lost four. Rest in peace, soldiers.

See y’all later and have a great week.